Wednesday, March 31, 2004
today was my first ever tournament... ping pong ... bah. took place at chung cheng high... which REALLy resembled a temple. anyway. i had fun playing. in the end... though our asses got kicked. oh well. heard we were aginst the stronger doubles so it was kind of expected i suppose. though i was pretty disappointed abt the fact that i got so nervous before that... i felt like barfing. n during the whole thing i didnt fully enjoy it cos of that stupid thing. it has always been an unusually huge barrier for me to cross... i get nervous in such small situations... even the prospect of doing a class presentation. now... even THINKING of it makes my palms sweaty. i cant help it. i really wish there was some sort of a medical cure for it. but there isnt. nobody seems to understand n i dont think anyone ever will... its not even worth being so nervous abt damnnit... so why am i??? wtf lar. sheesh. didnt get to smash at all... so no kick for me. i didnt play well at all. mayb cos i havent had enough exposure. i always play with the same lot of ppl back in ac... i got to show off more. haha. anyway. im still happy cos ac boys n girls still won overall... haha. too bad for aj. oops! anyway. hehz. gonna sleep. damn shagged. went out for dinner with sop twins shenling... 2 other guys too. think their names zhao fang n yan qing. think. hahaha. didnt talk much to them though. k. im super tired. was half asleep when i accompanied the folks to my future condo.. palm gardens.... in choa chu kang... im kind of excited... though the location is kind of sucky... we dont have that much walking to do... and... we'll have a pool! woooo! i wouldnt mind staying at home anymore. n it will be after a s... ill be damn free so ill go get a tan n play tennis all day! fun!you are a loser at 11:26 PM
