Sunday, May 16, 2004
i realised that i have so much to say when im depressed. so ill put my lousy emotions to use now. i cant sleep. im tired but i cant. have u ever felt so... insignificant? n stupid cos u just cant do anything right? n embarrassed cos u allow people to see u like this. i dont like people to know when im down. ive succeeded in putting on a good facade. until now. n guilty cos u feel certain emotions that are so unnecessary. things that affect everyone else around u... its just redundant stuff that people around u have to put up with for a while. n for their sake u just wish u'd disappear from the very face of this earth. at least contribute to world peace for a while. n helpless cos ure losing grip of ur own emotions... u wish these crazy thoughts would just disappear.. then u can finally go back to ur old self. i want to cry ... but i will not allow it to happen. i am not a crybaby.you are a loser at 1:02 AM
