Monday, May 31, 2004
sometimes i really feel like kicking myself. all im doing is making a big fuss out of nothing and this is just making us both more weary. i know he cares. just sometimes it doesnt seem so at times. n i just wanted to point it out. n then now i realised that he really cant take all this much longer. so ill stop. ill shut up. ill grin n bear with whatever it is. ill do whatever it takes to get us through this. cos even if i have to start shutting up its worth it. i really want this relationship to last. i know he wants it to last too. i dont care if a few stupid comments abt us from certain ppl made me feel uneasy. i wont care. i wont say a word more on that. i really would love to kick myself hard in the ass now but doubt my legs would be able to do that properly.you are a loser at 12:10 AM
