Sunday, November 20, 2005
he called yesterday. it seems like hes already moved on. what made me sad was that he didnt seem the least bit upset at all. its the christmas season and im feeling a lot lonelier than ever. and right now... being up awake @ 4.30 am all alone at home doesnt quite help it. then again, since hes moved on, ill make sure i move on too. i told him once during the relationship that if we ever split, id definitely be able to be completely over him. this whole relationship was kind of like a learning experience i guess. If i could turn back time, id do it all over again. my eyes are no longer swollen from the barrage of tears from the last few nights. i guess ive mourned enough. not going to wallow in self pity or wonder what was wrong with me anymore. i do feel proud that i handled this so much better than the last one... anyway... breakups are common arent they? i suppose it hardens hearts. i feel almost numb now. perhaps thats what its like for him. hes already accustomed to all that. its time for some change in my life again. just 9 months ago i was set free to enjoy my single life. and i did. so now im going to do it again. :)you are a loser at 1:48 AM
